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Saturday, February 15, 2014

Jumping into January

Within the first eleven days of this month, I was in California, Mississippi, Tennessee, Maryland, Washington D.C., and Virginia—talk about busy. The sheer number of emotions I had in the first third of this month was enough to drive someone a little up the wall. Before I left home, I was anxious to find out where my next SPIKE location would be, dreading the return to extreme levels of responsibility, and excited to see Team Green. And those were only the emotions relating to my professional life…


January was a month spent with missed loved ones and transitioning back to the insanity of the Amier-life. I really wish I could have written this post closer to the end of January…instead of on February 15th. I apologize in advance for any cynicism, negativity, or hopelessness that seeps into this post. January really was a great month. Let’s see if today’s mind is capable of conveying that…

Sunny California

As all you Californians know, we had just about the sunniest “winter” ever. After being in the Midwest for the previous months, though, that 80 degree weather was exactly what the doctor ordered. Realistically, California may have just been perfect because I got to see so many people I loved. January was particularly wonderful.

Dino

Okay, quick story: When I was younger and I would yell my brother’s name…everyone would ask me if I was calling him “Dino”. I obviously wasn’t…but this section is about him.

While I was out at a coffee shop on New Year’s Day, a woman from LA Fitness came by and asked if I wanted a free week pass. Normally, I say no to these offers. This time, however, Daniel popped into my head and I remembered him saying how badly he wanted to play racquetball. I snatched up two free passes in an instant. The next day, Daniel and I played an hour of uncoordinated, embarrassing racquetball. After warming up for about 15 minutes, Daniel asked me if I realized I had been laughing literally the entire time. I guess I might be going a little crazy…

Anyways, this was our last day home and our last day together for about another 6 months. We laughed and were incredibly patient with one another. I am so lucky to call Daniel my brother and especially my friend. You inspire me every day, Bud. I love you so much.

Co-worker

A random night in November of 2012, I had an epiphany that I needed a new job. I am grateful for that realization everyday…because without it, I wouldn’t have met one of my best friends. My co-worker and friend Emma is the absolute best introvert to be counterpart with my introvert. My second to last day in California, Emma drove up from San Diego and we hung out all day. Like, seriously, we talked for 9 hours straight. We talked about books, our families, nerdy school things, jobs, and what’s coming next for both of us. My heart has never felt so full from a plutonic friendship…ever. I look forward to knowing and making memories with you for a heck of a long time after this.

Even Better If’s

Back during Team Leader Training, a Team Leader organized this thing called an “EBI session”. EBI stands for Even Better If. The reason for this session was to point out people’s strengths and also to offer constructive criticism to become even better leaders. After some concerns were raised within my team, I decided this SPIKE would be a great opportunity to start these sessions for Bayou 6. Starting a few days before we departed for Washington, DC through now, we have had a weekly EBI session. Every individual has the opportunity to talk to each team member for 2 minutes each in a one-on-one setting. This session has allowed my team to take ownership over their personal emotions and their reactions to others on the team. As Team Leader, I no longer have to play the bad guy and point out “bad behavior” because my team is able to confidently address it on their own.


FEMA Headquarters

Bayou 6 is working out of FEMA Headquarters in Washington, DC. We actually have work this SPIKE and it is important. As the Team Leader and representative for Bayou 6, I have had an incredible professional experience so far. I am meeting incredibly important people every day and contributing my intelligence and ideas in the many meetings I am required to attend. I feel competent and challenged constantly. (As of the middle of February, however, I realize that I need to share this professional experience with my Corps Members. Starting this week, I will start bringing them to all my meetings so they can be challenged too J)

Yoooooga

The first time I ever took yoga was my freshman year of college and I thought I was going to a kickboxing class…I was duped! Despite my first experience with yoga not being particularly welcomed, I figured I should still give it another try. After signing up for a two month pass at the LA Fitness around the corner from our housing, I discovered the many free exercise classes that are offered—Yoga being one of them. I started going to yoga and now it’s officially added to the list of very few things that can actually get my mind off the nagging thoughts of work, work, work. Sundays and Tuesdays, baby.

Team Green Takes Over the Nation’s Capital

I am spoiled and honored that I get to be deployed with four incredible Southern Region Campus Team Leaders. What’s even better is that I’m rooming with one of them. Since our arrival in DC, my Corps Members have said to me “you seem so happy here!” and I couldn’t agree more. I love my team to death, but it is so wonderful to have people outside the dynamics of my team to interact with. I have gotten to know these members of Team Green better than I ever expected to…and our time together really has just begun! These individuals are the reason I am able to be happy, positive, and healthy for my team. I find it so hard to believe I got through last SPIKE without them.

Words from Other's Mouths

After going through my journal for January, I found that I wrote down a lot of quotes—more than usual at least. Since they don’t necessarily fit into any sort of category besides “quotes”…I figured I would just make a cute little section just for them!

“Make today the weirdest, coolest, awesomest poem you’ve ever written” – The Ripples Guy
“Grab a plate and throw it on the ground.
Did it break?
Yes.
Now say sorry to it.
Did it go back to the way it was before?
Do you understand?”
“If nobody tried, nothing would ever happen” – Franklyn (wise taxi driver)
“Time flies when the wind is blowing” – Random Man at a CafĂ© in downtown DC

The Simple Serendipities


Google Translate Might Not Be That Accurate: The end of January was Chinese New Year! To celebrate, and to experience a little diversity, my team and I went to the Smithsonian Art Museum for their Chinese New Year event. Since I love books, I decided I wanted a few of the cute lil’ bookmarks they had. The funniest part of my day had to be our process of “translating” the Chinese on the bookmarks. The “translations” are as follows:

                “I want a boyfriend this year” and
                “I was born not to forget my expansive love for the old fisherman”

We didn’t even bother finding out the actual translations. I still can’t stop giggling about the old fisherman…

The Happy Tart: There is a certified gluten-free bakery in Alexandria—The Happy Tart!! And those same baked goods are sold in coffee shops all over. I get to eat pastry treats so often!!

Microwavable Gluten Free Chocolate Cake: Being deployed with other teams, and in turn being deployed with some of my closest friends, nice things happen pretty darn often. One of my fellow Team Green members bought the ingredients for microwaveable chocolate cake since we don’t have ovens. Amazing? I think yes. I've eaten about a million.

Poop in the Van!!: One day on our way to the grocery store, my sensitive-nosed Corps Member starting complaining it smelled like poop. Immediately, I shot that idea down…because a) ew and b) how could there be poop in the van? Well that was the wrong response…one of my Corps Members stepped in poop and dragged it into the van. It was so funny it was impossible to be angry. Poop in the van, really? Gross. 




What's going on right now:

I just had the hardest week of being a Team Leader...and it's not over yet. I am fighting for the mental health, well-being, and happiness of my team. I was told I would have to make hard decisions this year and now I can definitely say that yes, I have. 

Friday, February 14, 2014

Winter Storm Pax

Can we all just laugh at the irony that this storm means peace? 

Wednesday, February 12, 2014

Why I Haven't Been Posting...

QUICK UPDATE (seriously quick):

Why hello there, February. Back way in the day during Team Leader Training, campus staff dropped some wisdom on us young, hopeful Team Leaders. They said "Every team goes through a funk in February". As a Team Leader who remembered this ominous advice, I thought I would be completely prepared...

I thought wrong!!

For about the zillionth time this year, I have re-discovered that I am not always right. Hard life, right? Luckily, this time around, I'm not scared. The most horrifying part of change is the unknown. So as a Team Leader, I just have to make the unknown known. 

With this wonderful learned knowledge from last SPIKE, I have been able to apply it to this current SPIKE. And thank goodness. Yes, I'm tired, stressed, scared, hopeless (at times), stressed, busy, and tired and tired and tired...but at least I know how to handle the situation this time around. I'm not running away. I'm talking about things I am terrified of hearing...but I'm doing it. I am doing it. I'm crying a lot, sleeping little, and feeling a bit like a balloon that is about to explode...but I'm surviving. And I know the storm can only last so long...

The monthly update will hopefully be coming to you this weekend. I can't wait to relax and write...and relax some more :)

Sunday, January 19, 2014

The National Mall and Me

I have officially been in Washington, D.C. for an entire week. Quite truthfully, with the exception of traffic, I have nothing bad to say about the place. My office is a five minute walk from the National Mall (which I walk every lunch), our work is fulfilling, intellectually stimulating, and critically important, and I get to come home to two supportive, gracious Team Leader roommates. This second round of work is drastically different from our last deployment in only the best ways.

With the massive amount of traffic, unfortunately, the weekdays are long. We leave for work long before sun up and we return to our Extended Stay America just as the sun is setting. Physical Training and dinner still have to happen…and the next thing you know, we’re all snoozin’. To say the least, I have to get all my adventuring done during lunch hours so that we’re not all sitting in traffic for unnecessarily long in the afternoon.



This post serves two purposes then: 1) To let everyone know that I have safely arrived in Washington D.C. and 2) To show you the few pretty pictures I have taken in the past couple days. Enjoy! J


Wednesday, January 8, 2014

The Capital of the United States

Let me first start off with this…it is WAY too easy to get comfortable with not working. Yes, I have quickly re-adjusted to the go-go-go nature of AmeriCorps, but my goodness, work is exhausting! I’m severely neglecting Jack Kerouac (author of the novel I’m reading) during breaks in the day by eating food, taking naps, socializing with my friends, preparing for presentations, and packing for my next move instead of reading! It is quite a shame and I hope that the deceased novelist and the finely wrought words forgive me one day.

Secondly, my team and I are deployed with OTHER TEAMS this time. WHAT!? I am mostly completely excited about this. Being with Team Leaders on our last round for even a small amount of time was entirely rejuvenating for me…even if just for a short time. I’m only slightly anxious about the company because it will be a totally different atmosphere for my team. Like me, Bayou 6 has a hard time splitting their time among social outlets. Some things seem more gratifying than others, some activities require a lot of energy (especially for us introverts), and sometimes it’s a heck of a lot easier to say “no” than it is to try. I worry, of course, that my team may choose those deployed around us over team time. I also worry for me. I worry that I would rather spend all my free time with other Team Leaders rather than decompressing with my team…or even alone. This obstacle will be much more manageable once we’re there and after some expectations are set within myself and for my team. Until then, I shan’t worry about it.

Now the information you’re really wondering but basically already know because of the title of this post…Where is Bayou 6 going this round??

Washington, D.C. baby!! :)


Not only will Bayou 6 be deployed with other teams…but we will also have all the activities of Washington D.C. constantly surrounding us. I can’t think of a better place for us to make up all the hours we still need…there are so many opportunities! I’m ecstatic and anxious about the polar oppositeness of this SPIKE compared to our last…but this program is about change. I could not be more thrilled that my team will be given the challenging and wonderful opportunity to adapt.

I think we head out Friday…but possibly not until Tuesday. A lot of things are still in the works. Technically, I should warn all of you that there may be an amendment to the location post again…though that doesn’t quite affect you as much as it does me or my team…

Anywho—I can’t wait for this new adventure, yet again. I can’t wait to tell you of all the joys and struggles (and how we overcome them) of this next SPIKE. Until then…Happy Living <3 

Saturday, January 4, 2014

Dilapidated yet Delightful December

December definitely has to be one of the most challenging months I had this year. The first 18 days were spent in Missouri (definitely not my favorite of the 50 states) but the rest was spent with dozens of people I hadn’t seen in months and missed terribly. As I looked through my journal for the first half of December, I found the sentence “I am unhappy” written more times than I hope to ever see or feel again. Time passed slower than it ever has and all I wanted was to move forward, past the state of sadness, boredom, and Missouri/misery I was in. My normal distractions for loneliness did not prove to be as consuming in December as they were in November. Despite the seeming hopelessness that the first half of December held…wonderful, beautiful things happened like they always do. And it was those things that got me through our last weeks in “purgatory”.

Playing Around

I have found in the past many months that when my thoughts get the best of me, when I can’t help but feel lonely, and when I feel uncharacteristically hopeless…I need to simply play. I need to let myself be a child again and let all my worries fade away with the simple, joyful act of laughing.

Despite Saint Robert, Missouri being Bayou 6’s least favorite location over the past 4 months…we did find two peaceful locations together. One was the park located perfectly between our hotel and office space. At this park, we were able to fully immerse in our youth. We made a relay race on the playground, climbed and hopped all over the mini-skate park, jumped off swings, took tons of pictures, played “Heads Up”, and laughed uncontrollable amounts.

The second location was the Pulaski County Historic Courthouse. This was the only place we were able to perform Independent Service Projects during our time in Missouri. It was our job to paint the discolored damaged walls from the flooding that occurred just a few months before. I know a large reason I felt so peaceful there was because it was a beautiful display of the teamwork and love that has flourished within Bayou 6. We volunteered two separate times and successfully painted the entire high-ceilinged and historically significant space.

I came to the unfortunate discovery (even though I tried my best to fight it) that I’m not a winter person. I’m a California girl born and raised…and that became obvious to me when I started getting abnormally pouty when I couldn’t go outside as much as I wanted without losing feeling in my fingers. My team and I did have a good time playing in the snow, though, on the first day…











Getting Excited for Next SPIKE…

As a recent business marking graduate, I decided that I should gather data from my team, analyze it, and create improvements for the next two SPIKEs. As forced as this sounds, it was the best decision I could have made. My team’s answers got me super amped for this upcoming SPIKE (where ever that may be—stay tuned) and got my brain churning with ideas for an even better experience for Bayou 6 in 2014.

Back to Mississippi

The four days I spent in Mississippi in December were my sweetest and most precious days this month. Upon arriving, I did everything in extremes. Any time I was alone, I was calm…but any time I reunited with a Team Leader or staff member, I lost it. I sprinted more my first day in Mississippi than my entire High School track career combined (hyperbole). I have never been exhausted for such a wonderful reason in my life. Every time I saw someone I loved, I felt like a missing piece of my heart was replenished.

Being in Mississippi again resulted in a lot of reflection and reminiscing. The best realization I had? Bayou 6 is a brand new team. After deep cleaning our van, one of my Corps Members asked me “Do you remember the last time we had to deep clean the van?” I said I had forgotten. The last time Bayou 6 had to clean the van, there was no sense of teamwork, camaraderie, and everyone despised having to be with one another. This time? Imagine the picture to the right coupled with Lady Gaga’s CD blasting in the background. We built this. We became a family. My heart leaps at this discovery.

California Love

Well shoot, to go into my time at home with great detail would likely bore the hell out of most of you. Because of that, I will just do a quick recap. I saw about a bajillion people I love, soaked up the California sun every single day, played the piano for hours on end, read (and am still reading) On the Road by Jack Kerouac, watched The Secret Life of Walter Mitty, sang Wicked tunes obnoxiously at the top of my lungs, received a rejuvenating relaxation massage, visited my beautiful Pacific, played racquetball with my brother, and got my computer fixed—hallelujah! My time here was refreshing just as I hoped it would be. It’s terrifying how easy it is to get comfortable NOT working though…



The Simple Serendipities

I guess this month's serendipities are mostly about being excited for my future, proud of myself, and ecstatic that I have such incredible people in my life. These are simple facts that are truly impossible to ignore. 

Being reminded I’m fearless: On Christmas day, my grandfather reminded me of one very important thing. When I was 11 years old, I went to Australia and New Zealand with the People to People Student Ambassador program. After stumbling over my response to the question “What are you going to do after AmeriCorps?” my grandpa said this: “You’ve been incredible since you were eleven years old. You weren’t too scared to go to Australia when you were eleven…so you won’t be too scared to do anything in your 20s.” I cannot imagine a better time for that sentence to have graced my ears. Thanks Grandpa.

I understand this reference: I also know that this dude's name is Aaron Rodgers, he plays for the Packers and he just came back from a collar bone injury. BOOYAH. 


Being an Editor: As you all can tell…I love love love writing. And guess what? I love editing too. My friend Dave has this kick-ass travel blog-- The Quest for Awesome-- and has been writing guest posts for some other travel blogs, too. He has asked me to help him edit a couple posts. It’s been awesome to do something I love for someone I care so deeply about. Below are the links to his published articles. Proud of you, Dave.

Wednesday, January 1, 2014